Do you think relationships are so shallow? Do they have an expiry date? It was an arrow that plunged through the heart!
Family, friends, cousins, acquaintances - all feel meaningless! All those whom I expected will stand besides me, left my side.
Feels like a smokehouse that just got cleared of people and no one was there in the space.
Smoke cleared, people too!
Wondering if my existence is a bane for everyone now. Wondering if I am so unimportant for people now.
Just a major let down!
Wondering why does nobody wants me now. Am I being punished? Or am I just being plain ignored?
I feel insulted for having been scorned for my choices. Self respect labelled as arrogance.
Childhood ties abandoning me. Just when I thought childhood was forever, it turned out to be my very end! The worst feeling is being let down by friends - with whom you grew up! I understand distances come in friendships but never imagined I would be devastated some day. It is a huge let down!
A plunge into the abyss!
A plunge into the deepest dungeons of time!
I don't know where all this is headed to, but I can't handle my emotions anymore! When I was younger, I had fears of death but never fear of being abandoned. Now, as I grow older, life has taught me harsh lessons - never to rely on anyone except myself.
Years ago, I prayed for God to take me away from this world. I even tried going away myself. But God's whims: he refused to listen to me back then! Now I pray no more. I don't wish anything anymore!
Now I refuse to seek anyone. I don't seek friends or any soulmate too.
I have decided to abandon all those who abandoned me when I needed them the most!
But it definitely hurts like hell!!
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