A roller coaster ride in an amusement park called LIFE!!

I've never ever in my whole life ever gone to an amusement park. I was forever scared of heights, depths, water...and most importantly since childhood, i've always had a FEAR OF FALLING!!! At all times, I've been a 'safe-playing' person...and yet all the disasters happened wid me - the worst injuries happened to me (thankfully not to my frnds - who probably were more risk taking and more adventurous than me!). Whenever anything bad happened - i would start crying and was made fun of by my uncles who actually got a bucket to fill my tears...Yet everytime i fell - i learnt something new. Everytime there was a crisis - i learnt to handle myself! My first being when my grandfather passed away (when i was in sixth) - I cried n cried and believe it or not - i visualised myself and then my parents dying in a few years (i used to count on my little fingers the number of years i'd hve to pass out frm school...)...I was this insecure about life...Then it felt wat it was to sit on a roller coaster in Essel World/a Veegaland etc....Little was i to know that death was not the only thing i'd hv to learn to battle out with - there was more in God's list of 'experiences' tat i was supposed to have...heartbreaks, my first crush, my first kiss, first love, college, studies and probably more to come... I even kept this 'Imagine the worst' policy to buffer me frm disaster - but God turned even cleverer - he twisted and turned everything that came my way - he confused me all the time - if i proposed - God disposed! The moment I got a comfort zone for myself - he made sure I am displaced yet again! I hv lived in 5 cities now (Mumbai, Coimbatore, Kottayam, Bangalore n now Delhi!). Again I am wary - its 2 years here - after this where, what! I have this unique way of dealing wid my surroundings (cities) which probably gets me adjusted 2 whichever place I go to...Thanks to God...now I have stopped looking for stability...love...dreams...watever i wanted in my life! I just flow wid life and God's plans and dont dare swim against the tide...become kinda laidback - say "God has his plans for me". Dont know whether this happens wid everyone...yet...my whole life revolves around "TO BE OR NOT TO BE"...wat about u guys? Huh, wasnt reading this a roller coaster ride for u all...am sure it was...:)